It’s been quite a while now that I haven’t put anything on here. I was quite busy or at least pretended to be busy!

My daily life hasn’t been changed much, a few things to sort out in house almost everyday, too much in life to think, to solve and to get annoy. I think I’m a lot calmer than previous few weeks though a bit sad but one can’t avoid sadness really. I’m now launch myself into Hary Potter book which I could have done it ages ago! but believe it or not! I’ve just started the first book not very long ago. I have always resent the fact of reading hary Potter because I couldn’t take it, I have tried so many times as I ‘ve said but now I think it’s the time! May be, after all if we open our mind and let it flow and go with things around us and try to understand or at least if we can’t understand everything we just have to let it past, then we’ll be happy.

happiness is the easy thing to find though the hardest thing to keep, I’ve learnt that many times.

I can’t remember whether I’ve said that my housemates argued on… must have been tuesday or monday. Anyway, wasn’t pleasant situation and yet, Ziba hasn’t done her work a paart from cleaning upher dishes and stuff but no hoovering, no toilet cleanings etc which she meant to do it this week, I sstill have to top up gas by myself tomorrow.

This is another reason that I like reading books,  doing that keep my mind away from those stupid shit besides gives a lot of pleasure, laughing, crying and after all it’s not real. As  Einstein said that imagination controls the world , and that is true enough, without  imagining things, we wouldn’t have great invented of internet, food procesors and great books to read.

Right i’ve got to  excuse myself and back to Hary Potter until I finish and find another book to read…

For the most unbearable!

yesterday, I went to the Sussex Eye hospital for the appointment to get myself registered blind and that to obtain blind certificate. I went there and stayed there for such long long time and i couldn’t stand it. By the time I left hospital I was ok, then I went to see geoff. He was ok, he was pleased to see me and so, we chatted and he told me things, I told him things though part of my stories were lie. I had to cause I didn’t want to see him and that i had to lie to him and had to carry on with it which is not good I know. I told him about moving, he offered me to stay, I wanted but then I had experiences with last year so I must admit that i have doubts in my mind. However, it seems that I have no other good choichoice if I want to save money and if I want to save money. This house is good except that I have pay a reidulously amount of money for gas, electricity, internet and household things. I’m sick of people ripping me off even my sister just recently done that to me. I’m so sad, more sad than ever because I wuldn’t expect my sister to do such a thing to me. I know that she desperate for money, but was that the way to get money? Am I nasty to her to make her want to rip me off? I’m tired, sick of human. I have so many issues, do with sister, mother, friends… but I will deal with it. i will have to and I will

one of those saturdays!

It’s nearly the end of this saturday now. I’m feeling not too well i mean physically though mentally not so good either. sagal came up this morning and borrowed 5 pounds from me with the incomprehensive reasons yet I gave it to her. The gas+electricity has run out and she went topped up )so she said) 10 each and that she said five+4+1 = 10 for me. 5 for borrwing me, 4 internet cost and 1 pound for toilet’s rolls etc (however, the cost of toilet’s roll were more expensive than a pound but anyway…).

She had friends stayed last night and left the heater fan on all night i guess and didn’t even turn it off when they left the room (no doubt why the electricity has run out os quick). Gas has been used up a lot! and that not gonna last for so long iehter.

Hve’t done much today, still detoxing myself.

First of all

After I’ve been blogging with many other sites. I am now hoping or thinking or wanting to stop and just keep blogging on this site only (but to that we shall see).

For some oddy reasons I went on google and did a usual things i.e. search and this site just popped up and so it began! I personally, like to write but most of the time don’t know what to write and not very good at it.

For yesterday.

I didn’t go to uni but I was gonna though, then again I thought it is only an hour lecture why bother to go in but I promise to myself that I will go next time, my excuse for this friday was that I had such a bad  aching, and that is true as well. Since i got back from liverpool, went to Sainsbury and had to carried all of those heavy shopping bags and cleaned the whole house plus tidied up my room, all of those had left me with body aching, not stomach, not just back but the whole body, besides I’m on my detoxication session i.e. eating just fruits, fruit juice, tea, water and nothing else, have made me a bit tired.

I downloaded Hary Potter the story that i’ve been always anti (not that I didn’t like) I used to try and it didn’t work, tried both version i.e. Thai and English , both formats i.e. braille and audiobook but didn’t work. However, I had a file from one of my friend so I listened and there it was! quite good though shouldn’t be that addictive. While I was listening to Hary Potter, one of my housemates came up and asked for some opinion on the privacy matter. We talked and I did give her some thoughts about it. She left her phone in my room for me to deal with a person. then, I couldn’t handle him lol! I did pass the phone back to her.

Matt and Ryan rang me, they both together, they both drunk! I don’t like to talk to drunk people though Matt didn’t sound so bad but Ryan. I still reckon that Ryan likes me that way which I don’t approve him to and if I know we need to sort something out. I won’t let him have that feelings for me since I do trust him as just a friend and he always insists it so he can’t.