It’s March already! time goes so quick I feel lke i haven’t done anything productive at all.
I have finally finished Harry Potter which wasn’t bad after all. many people might have read it to get pleasure out of it which is of course, the theme of that book. However, I’ve found more than just relaxing and fantisising my idea. I think this book is a great impression of friendship and the important friends is to us all. In additional, this book not bias against evil or good since in every characters have their own good side along side with bad point. so, even though Harry potter meant to be the hero!, he still an idiot anyway.
My house situation hasn’t changed though I finally sorted out what I am going to do. I’ll leave the house because I feel this house ben ripped me off! both physicall and mentally.
I was so angry at some point that they both or in fact, three of them never paid me any respect and will always take for granted of me. Then, I’ve read my favourite book on buddhism wich is always does to me i.e. enlightened me so well. so, I still insist that forgiveness is the hardest thing for human beings to do and not everyone able to forgive people but I! though not a brilliant peson in fact quite bad.. I am able to forgive people most of the time.
Most of alll, meditation helps me a lot and to explain that will lead me to pages and pages to explain how good meditation is and how buddhism is not religion but branch of philosophy.
However, I still can’t stop myself of feeling sorry for myself that they take advantages of me. One of them wants to go and work in bangkok and she leaves it all to me, blame me of not follow up her job for her, burden me with her life which I have I take responsible for which in turn I shouldn’t think it’s my duty to do so but i do think that anyway.
so, I’ve tried so hard to avoid them, stay in my room or else be in library. sad enough that nobody seems to cae about my feelings but then again why should i bothered not having anyone interested in my life? Shouldn’t feel relax that I can live solitarily? theAs to that, no, since people never leave me alone this is because it’s “life” beause we are “human”
